And after service, I finally saw Pepsi and Potae!! They just came back from Thailand yesterday!! It was so good to see them again! And I also managed to finally pass them their Christmas presents. We then went up to the 4th floor for some fellowshipping. We all took some photos. And then, we took 4 GROUP photos. And the last one, we were told to go... CRAZY! So... Joel and Bertram, who were standing behind me and Dorothy, started pushing down on us, causing us to push down on Sara, and causing her to fall, causing us to fall. Onto Sara... SORRY SARA!! I REALLY AM! Hee...

But we just laughed and grinned as the photo was taken. Then we all got up. Sara said 3 people landed on her, someone stepped on her shoulder and Ayron stepped on her hair... Then, Dorothy wanted to help her up, but then she stepped on Joel's foot. Joel started his shout from soft to loud. AND DOROTHY STILL DIDN'T NOTICE!! I HAD TO GET HER OFF JOEL'S FOOT!

When I finally got my posture again, I started hitting (GENTLY) on Bertram and Joel... Yeah, a lot of injuries were caused today. But poor Sara is the one who got most of them. Then we all sang Li Ming and Jonathan (Christina's friend) the Happy Birthday song. Then we all proceeded to NTU for some food. We got there at... 2:30? 3? We finished our food and started fellowshipping. Here is where the funny parts come in. The place where I have NEVER laughed so hard before!!

Some were just random. But one part I remember was Joel and Carol taking a photo. Schumann was the photographer. Suddenly, Joel said: "Bertraaaaammm... Bertraaaaaamm..."
HAHAHAHAHA!! When I asked him about it, he honestly didn't realize he had said that! HONESTLY! He was like... "I really said Bertram's name ar?! Why ar?!"

Fortunately, Bertram had left already so he didn't really have to encounter that. Or is it UNfortunately? Oh wells! Who cares?! HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!

Then we started telling each other mindless jokes. Mindless but hilarious and Christina "wasted" 6 minutes of our time!! CHRISTINA!! I DON'T LIKE CLIFFHANGERS!! And then Schumann's ice kachang which was ALREADY in his mouth started dripping out when he laughed! HAHAHAHA!! It was gross but FUNNY!! YAHAHAHAHAHAHA!! I laughed and laughed and laughed until my stomach hurt! Then we went to the washrooms. And Joel screamed.

Christina needed tissue paper. And the toilets for females and males were directly opposite. I knew Lokies had tissue and I saw him JUST entering the toilet. So I jumped out of the females toilets and yelled: "LOKIES!" and Joel screamed. Not because he was scared! No! Because I jumped so close to the male's toilet door, he thought I was going inside. So he tried to imitate how a girl would scream if a guy went inside the female's toilet. He did a good job of it too... HAH!

Then we boarded a bus and Ayron and I went home. I got home. And I had no idea that God would test me to see if I absorbed everything from services. My mom has some problems now. I won't say what but I can say it is something do with getting used to change. Traditon-Transition-Transformation. And also why she needs to change. I managed to help my mom. And so did Ayron. And now she's happily packing the place. =)

Also, I listened to my MP3 just now. I was all... "EMO"ing cause I'd be missing everyone. I put it on Shuffle. After "The Truth" by Good Charlotte, then came "Moving On" by Good Charlotte also. (I'm a big fan. I have all albums on my MP3!) Moving on. I shouldn't be holding onto the past. I should step forward to the future, yes? Hee... After that, I was so refreshed! Sure, we shouldn't forget our closest friends who were put into other cell groups, but neither should we dwell on it! YEAH! Shall blog another time soon!!=)

Posted by B at 8:30 PM

291207 - Multiplication

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Friday, December 28, 2007

281207 - Tomorrow...

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Thursday, December 27, 2007

271207 - First Blog Entry From My New Computer

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271207 - Chocolate

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Wednesday, December 26, 2007

261207 - (No Title)

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Tuesday, December 25, 2007

251207 -God Will Use ANYTHING

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Monday, December 24, 2007

241207 - Family Christmas Party

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Sunday, December 23, 2007

231207 - Headache and now, a Fever

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Saturday, December 22, 2007

221207 - My Day

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Friday, December 21, 2007

211207 - Swiss Cottage

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Thursday, December 20, 2007

201207 - Pure Randomness

Yes... That's me. In a DRESS! A PINK dress. PINK! Hell has frozen over!! This photo was taken yesterday. By my mom. My mom said I look pretty in a dress. But then again, that's what all mothers say. She was taking so many photos of me, it was like I was getting married!! Too much skin was exposed in the other photos. Sleeveless!! Back is also exposed!! So I took a shaw. It looks nicer this way, I think. Anyways, TAKE A GOOD LOOK AT THIS! IT'LL BE THE LAST TIME YOU SEE ME IN A DRESS!!

Anyways... I just have this sudden urge to blog. So... I don't really have a lot to say. I just wanna blog. So, I'll start with last night. I really couldn't get to sleep last night. I was tossing and turning. I didn't sleep till 4. I had plenty of time to think last night. In the coziest place of all, my bed.

I was thinking about how I would be moving on to Sec 1 next year. And all the thoughts from the last day of school came back. Then I thought about the cell group. How I have changed from before I met Jesus and after I did. I didn't really change a lot. Only in the area of fighting. And swearing
Yeah... And then I thought about... Well... My future. What would I be when I grow up? I have lots of choices and things I wanna be. But... All those visions and dreams now seem so... Distant. It's like I'm not even... Dreaming anymore. Then I fell asleep.

I woke up at 10 and played with Kino for a while. Chatted with some friends on MSN. Now, I'm blogging. And everyone is fussing about me being in a dress....

Posted by B at 10:50 AM

Wednesday, December 19, 2007

191207 - The Talk With My Father

I'd like to tell you all about the talk I had with my father and brother yesterday night. First, it started off with complaining about the bad service the management here at Parc Oasis offers, then it came back to our religion. My father used to be a christian and was even baptised. He was a believer of Christ for 5 years. He back-slided because he thought it was "fake". He said that if the Bible told us of the future, why didn't it say anything about Computers, or handphones or stuff like that?

Then he said he felt that he was closer to Jesus than my brother and I combined. I asked why was that. He said that, he and Jesus both had the same mind set about church. He used the example of when Jesus said that the House of God was turned into a den of thieves. My father thought the same for our churches. Then he started to talk about us speaking in tongues. My father said that the only people who can speak in tongues were people who had been baptised. He said it was in the Bible and indeed it is.

And, whatever. He said he had absolutely NO objection to me and my brother being in church. He said it was good "experience". Then he started asking why the only people healed were the crippled and not the blind? I have to admit, that one caught me off guard and it shocked me even more when I learned it was my mom who asked it. Okay... Now that I've said most of the stuff, I'd like to say this:

I shocked myself. I really did. I shocked myself through out this entire discussion. I was... mature enough to give back an answer. For example, my dad says that you cannot speak in tongues unless you are baptised. I was calm enough to reply that the baptism they mentioned in the Bible was not baptism with water but rather, baptism with the Holy Spirit. So, okay, my father accepted that answer. Then he went on to say that people who speak in tongues before PHYSICAL baptism are actually speaking the language of the devil and I told him that nothing in the Bible said that.

It was as if, the words I was using were not even mine. It was the Holy Spirit's. Which brings me to this: At the very end of the discussion, there was a Bible involved.The Book of Revelation. My father said that christian scholars have tried to interpretate it and have failed. I admit, when I read it, I was quite confused as well. But I didn't bother to try to figure it out. When my father said: "It's impossible". He ignited the spark in me. When people say something is impossible, I just have to try to prove them wrong. I went back to my room and got my Bible. Even Ayron said I couldn't do it. The whole while I took, taking my Bible, they kept saying: "You can't do it!" "It's impossible!" "Scholars have tried to do it and failed! What makes you think you can do it?!"

But I ignored them. I flipped to Revelations. Ayron told me to interpretate Chapter 6. The Chapter about the 4 horses, one of them being named: Death. The other 3 had no names mentioned in the Bible but people gave the 3 names. Pestillence, famine and war. The 3rd horse. Revelation 6:4.

Another horse, fiery red, went out. And it was granted to the one who sat on it to take peace from the earth, and that people should kill one another; and there was given to him a great sword.

To me, I figured this was the horse people called War. To explain it, was another task. I told my father and Ayron that it said: And it was granted to the one who sat on it to take peace from the earth, and that people should kill one another.

Obviously, that was War. Then they asked, why was it a sword given to him? Indeed, I did not know. But in 5 seconds, the answer came to me. I don't know if it's the correct answer, but this is my own thinking. In wars, the most common weapon would be the sword, and thus, the sword was given to him.

Ayron then suggested that perhaps, the 3rd horse would be Famine. Because, in Verses 5 and 6, it says:

When He opened the third seal, I heard the third living creature say, "Come and see." So I looked, and behold, a black horse, and he who sat on it had a pair of scales in his hand. And I heard a voice in the midst of the four living creatures saying, "A quart of wheat for a denarius, and three quarts of barley for a denariu; and do not harm the oil and the wine.

Ayron said famine means starvation and since so much food was mentioned, it would mean famine. I'm not sure. I really tried to interpretate them all and I was sure I would've if dad had not said: "Time to turn in!" I went to sleep, thinking about how to interpretate it. I thought: "I can do it."

Just as I thought of that, God spoke to me. He said: "Your faith will be rewarded."

Posted by B at 2:23 PM

Monday, December 17, 2007

171207 - Random

Hey all, just posting some photos. The last 3 ones were taken in Bang Kok by the way. =)

Posted by B at 8:38 PM

171207 - Please Have Faith In Me =)

I just got out of a short conversation with two of my friends, Josh and Dirge. They are from other countries. Their names are very... "American", I know. Okay, whatever. My previous blog was about how angry and annoyed I was. I just HATE being called weak. WEAK AYRON CALLED ME! Grr...

Then now he's talking about how I WON'T be able to get to Express from Normal Academic. You see, it's not about what we're talking about, it's that he has no faith in me. Why is it that the only people who have faith in me are NOT in my family? Fong called me dumb. Ayron agreed. I just got really angry. Then I went online. I saw my friends online so I chatted with them. Just a quick 5 minute conversation with Josh and Dirge both. I met them when I was 11, through GunBound, a game which I no longer play. But when I was, we teamed up and we were fantastic! We don't talk often, but when we do, it's for long periods of time... But not this time. This time it was just 3-5 minutes.

I told them how angry I was at Ayron and Fong. Abhishek at least didn't say anything about me being weak, pathetic or dumb. -Sigh- They told me not to let Ayron and Fong get to me. That if I did, I would have lost already. Too late, I told them. I did let them get to me. So, Josh and Dirge then told me not to do anything. Not to hit, insult or punch either Ayron or Fong. Dirge said that if I really wanted to get them back in the way that would hit them the most would be to PROVE THEM WRONG! Prove them wrong. I put up a little smiley face and thanked them both before I started blogging this.

I'm grateful. Really I am, for such great friends like them. Josh and Dirge gave me SENSIBLE advice. Not advice like: Punch them! XD Sensible advice. And I really look up to Dirge. Out of us 3, he is the oldest. He's 18. Recently, he's been having problems in his own life. And yet, in the midst of all the trouble, he could still be so laid back and calm. Calm enough to be able to help others. After Fong and Abhishek left and Ayron went back to his room, I chatted with Josh. Dirge had already logged off.

He asked me if I regretted any of my secondary school choices. He keeps up with my blogs and knows all my choices. Okay, see here. I'm a worry wart. I worry about everything! I told him, I was starting to regret my first choice, Fairfield. It was so far. I'd have to get up real early in the morning just to make it on time. Josh told me to relax and not to worry. He told me that wherever I would be posted to, I would be able to make it work. Man, I cannot tell you how much that encouraged me. I, would be able to make things work. ME! He had faith in me! Wow...

Posted by B at 7:28 PM

171207 - Weak and Pathetic lil' ol me

Man... I am so frustrated right now... All I did was walk into Ayron's room and asked him if we were still going swimming with Dorothy, Christina and Sarah because it was raining and he said I wasn't. He said I was weak and pathetic. It wasn't easy, holding in my anger. I wanna crush him.

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Sunday, December 16, 2007

161207 - (No Title)

Just got back from the Jurong West Church. Attended service this afternoon and gave out some gifts from Bang Kok. We did some of the House Cheers from the Youth Camp after service.

Paladins:
Who are, who are, who are we?
We are, we are, we are who?
Who are we?
We are who?
We arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrreee...
Paladins, paladins, all the way!
United we stand, together we fight!
V-I-C-T-O-R-Y
Victory, victory! That's our cry!
Paladins, paladins, fight fight fight!
(11 claps) Paladins! (11 claps) Paladins!
Gooooooooooooooooooooo Pa-Pa-Pa-Pa-Pa Paladins!

Priests:
Go like priest, go go go!
(Go like priest, go go go!)
Fight like priest, fight fight fight!
(Fight like priest, fight fight fight!)
We are the priest!
(We are the priest!)
We are the priest!
(We are the priest!)
All the rest can go fly kite!
(All the rest can go fly kite!)
Fly kite, fly kite, all the rest can go fly kite!
1, 2, 3! HALLELUJAH!

Okay, now about the camp. We slept in the classrooms, on the floors in our sleeping bags which is actually quite comfortable. I slept like a log! Next morning, we went for breakfast, la-de-la-la-la. Then played treasure hunt! We only got 4 clues... T-T. BUT NO MATTER! XD Then had a water ballon fight and all.... We just had a lot a lot of fun during the camp.

Yeah... It was tiring. In the 2 nights I slept there, not once did I sleep before 12AM... ARGH! MAN! I WAS SLEEP DEPRIVED! But, I'm all better now! THANK YOU SWEE XIANG FOR LEADING US! But one thing I must blog about is the session during the first night. Pastor Zhuang preached about what we should break away from. The last one really caught my attention. Shame.

Shame is something I've always had. I never really lost it, it was just in the back of my mind. I didn't want to think about it much. But it was always there. I went down the steps and stood in front with the others. As I stood there, watching Pastor, Kelvin and some others lay hands on others, I continued singing. Somehow, the lyrics of the songs really jumped out at me then. I slowly began to cry. The words were so... meaningful and... just... whole and they really showed how great God really was.

I saw Pastor Zhuang QUICKLY laying hands on others. Just one touch on the head. Then he laid his hand on me. I felt him wanting to move on already but then he stopped and laid hands on me even longer. He said: "He saw you hiding in the corner. Holy Spirit, don't let her hide anymore. Let the fear come out. Come out in the name of Jesus." As he laid hands on me, I cried EVEN MORE! Before it was just a tear coming down but now it was WATERFALLS of tears pouring down.

It was such a fantastic feeling... Wow... Then now after service, Kelvin "preached" to us. Then we hung around for a while and then now, Joshua, Dorothy, Lokies, Sap, Shyang Zhi, Ayron and I are back here at our house, waiting for the McDonalds before we start the movie: "Mean Girls". AND JOSHUA WAS STANDING RIGHT BEHIND ME AS I BLOGGED THIS!! I TOLD HIM NOT TO READ UNTL I POST IT!! JOSHUUUAAA!! >=(

Posted by B at 7:15 PM

161207 - Camp

Hey guys! I'm back from camp, miss me? XD Camp went quite smoothly. Although, on the first night, around 11PM to 1AM, I felt quite nauseous. But I got better after sleeping. Camp was definitely fun and not what I expected. I was in the House, Paladins and in the Team, 4. Paladins 4!

We played an "Amazing Race" on the first day. Which was very, very tiring. We had to run around the entire place. And the food there is delicious by the way. YUM! I can't give all the details now. This is just a quick blog to say I'm back and all. I'll blog again later!

Posted by B at 9:13 AM

Wednesday, December 12, 2007

121207 - ...

Okay, I just finished packing for the camp tomorrow. It's gonna be something... new. And man, I would be lying if I said I wasn't nervous because, I AM!

The last time I went to camp, which was also the first time, I ended up having to go home a day earlier because I got HEAT STROKE! I'm a nervous wreck! I'm thinking about, the weather, the activities, the sleeping conditions, the food (I know you are too!). Technically, just how the whole thing is gonna go.

But, I am excited. I am. I'm excited about the activities, definitely. WOWEE! Unfortunately... There won't be a cell group meeting this Saturday. We'll be going to the service at the Expo instead. -Sigh- Too bad. And, a lot of people won't be going!! Joshua and Schumann because of their exams. Pepsi and Potae because they are overseas. Wei Lun, Jouis, Chin Ping, Chin Ming, Kevin, Willy, Enrique and some others also not going. Oh wells...

Shall be leavin early in the morning tomorrow, will not be blogging or going online until at least Saturday or Sunday. =) Till then, keep rocking!

Posted by B at 7:03 PM

Tuesday, December 11, 2007

111207 - Camp. You Can't Change Me!

Camp. Our church's "Breakaway Camp" is this Thursday. Wow. It came so soon... I thought it was still a long way off. Oh wells... It's at Bishan. It shall last all the way to Saturday the 15th. I wonder if we shall still be having Cell Group Meeting then?



Oh wells... You know... Recently, I've got to wondering, if being who I am now, is part of God's will. You know... Being a bit more boyish than I really should be? Didn't Christina say that everything that happens, it is according to God's perfect will? So, I don't see why people disapprove. Then I got to wondering, will I be like this forever? And truth be told, I really hope so.

As I told Dorothy, I practically grew up as a boy! And if this should change, I would feel... Awkward... Not me, you know? I mean, you live your life as you, right? So, surely, if one day, you lived your life differently, definitely you would be able to tell, right? It would feel strange, different, new. Maybe in some cases, even better!

But I just don't see what is wrong with me being the way I am now! My friends, even my best friend, say I should be more... feminine. Well, maybe I don't want to be what you want me to be!! Maybe I like being the way I am! And don't you DARE say: "It's for your own good!" What can I possibly accomplish as a different person that I cannot accomplish now?

Man, it's like... waking up everday being who I am is a crime, you know? Do you know that feeling? Well, I'm sorry I'm not what you want me to be! Okay... I feel a lot better now then I've gotten it all out. XD

Posted by B at 7:04 PM

Monday, December 10, 2007

101207 - Friends I Can Keep

Today, was feeling a little down. Dorothy came over and gave me Bible Study. She left after about... 1 hour or so. Then I used the computer and all... Just felt... down.

Then about 7-8PM, I received a call from one Fong Li Jie. We just talked for a while. Laughed at some silly, ridiculous things he said, could hear Cheng Yang over the phone as well, throwing in comments every now and then. Then half an hour after getting off the phone, Fong appeared OUTSIDE MY WINDOW! It was 8 already. Chatted awhile. Then he told me to go the Club House to meet him, Abhishek and Cheng Yang to "hang out". From 8:30 to 9, Fong did nothing but talk and annoy me and all I did was pummel him for annoying me. Then Abhishek and Cheng Yang arrived.

We chatted for a while. Oddly, strangely, although they do annoy the crap outta me, they are one of the few people I can trust. They really are friends I can keep. -Sigh- How ironic is that? Talked with Abhishek once I got home, online. He gave some good advice. But I'm not sure if I can actually follow it, even if I wanted to. But all in all, today has been a "good" day. -Smiles-

Posted by B at 10:44 PM

Sunday, December 9, 2007

091207 - Sluggish

Okay, first off, I know you're all thinking: "FINALLY! A BLOG UPDATE!" Well, HELLO! I was in Bang Kok from Tuesday to yesterday night! I took a photo with 2 of my favourite big cats in the WORLD! I rode on a elephant's head. I went shopping (of course) and bought some gifts for the cell group.

Alright, if you realise, the title of this blog is: Sluggish. And that is how I am feeling. No energy. No fire. NOTHING! I feel like doing nothing. When I heard about the amazing race we were going to have after service, I was like: Urgh... It's going to be fun but tiring... But because of the rain, it was called off. After service today, they were going for fellowship but I felt so... SLUGGISH!! Slow... Weak... I just really wanted to get home... I HAVE NO IDEA WHY! I still am right now by the way... So, I'm not really... um... excited about anything...

Enough of the negativness. Now to the positiveness. It was great seeing the cell group again. Gave out some notebooks bought in Bang Kok. Lokies got a light green one, Joshua's was yellowish beige, Bertram's was red and Sap's was purple. To all the others: The notebooks came in only 5 colours. One I kept for myself. And so, I bought something else for you all. Shall give it out on Saturday.

I didn't really do much today, yeah. Just so tired and all... There is this weird funky feeling in my stomach... I don't what it is. By the way, I realised something during worship today: I don't like the song Saviour King as much as the others anymore.

Don't ask me why, I just don't. -Sigh- Sluggishness is awful, I hope you shall never experience it.

Posted by B at 10:00 PM

Sunday, December 2, 2007

021207 - Back to Jurong West!!

WHOO! My very first, REAL service at Jurong West! The entire place was PACKED! PACKED, I tell you! PACKED! There were not enough seats, even after the ushers placed in more chairs. Some people had to sit on the STEPS! Fortunately, our cell group did not have to. We were there early. =)

Pastor Kong preached about confidence. How confidence is actually faith. We have faith in something, we are confident of it. Confidence = Faith. Faith = Confidence. XD

After the service, there were DONUTS! DELICIOUS! Sappy stole my chocolate donut... T-T. And after the donuts, we went to Nanyang Technological University (NTU) to play sports! YAY! We played basketball with some members from W279 and man... They are good.

Then some went to the canteen. Some of us cooled down and played PSP. We just hang around and talked. Then they went to the Best Coffee Shop for dinner. Lokies, Ayron and I went home. That's where I am now. =)

I shall post the photos in another blog entry. So stay tuned!!

Posted by B at 9:15 PM

Saturday, December 1, 2007

011207 - (No Title. I'M RUNNING OUTTA TITLES!)

Today, I went to the gym, early in the morn with my mom. Ran for about half an hour (or more) around... 2km. Only, I know. I couldn't run any more and I am to blame. I tried to go over my limits by starting runnning only after 8 minutes of brisk walking. Brisk walking was already very fast. Then I started running and tired myself out too soon.

Then I went home and got ready for Cell Group Meeting. It was at Guo Yang's house at Boon Lay. Thanks Guo Yang for letting us use your room for Cell Group Meeting! I love your hamsters dude!

Today's title was: Being Free From Guilt.
It was something I knew was going to have a great impact on my life. I used to be a person who used to have a lot, and I mean A LOT of guilt. XD XD XD And why? Because I tried to reach the expectations others had for me. And when I couldn't do it... Well...

Guilt has 2 meanings. It is a belief that we have done something wrong. And it is a belief that we have not done something.

Guilt will torment us. It will. I know, for a fact. After many examples of why guilt was actually a sin, Hui Mei got around to telling us how to set ourselves free from guilt.

1. We have to repent from all our sins.

2. We have to reset our own expectation of ourselves.

3. We have to release ourselves from unreasonable expectations others have of us.

And number 3 was actually the problem. My friends had expectations of me. I tried to accomplish them. But I couldn't. And so, I felt guilty. Knowing I could not do what they thought I could do. How would YOU feel if there is a group of people who think highly of you and then you let them down?

You know how I got rid of my guilts? I just ran away from them. I now know I can't do that, can I? I have to run to God. I have to hide in his shadow and dwell in his presence. Today's Cell Group Meeting has really impacted me alot. A LOT!

And a very big thank you to Joshua! He led us through games, testimony time and offering time today! WHOO! Thank you Joshua! Keep rocking!!

And after Cell Group Meeting, we went to Jurong Point where I met up with 2 of my friends, Li Hui and Zhi Qi. We went to Long John Silver where Dorothy graciously shared her food with me. Thanks Dotty!

Then we went to Toys 'R' Us, where Lokies revealed his hate for Barney, the "retarded" dinosaur. Okay... I don't like Barney either but... Come on, it's educating young children, right?

Anyways, tomorrow we shall be going back to Jurong West for service! WOW! I'm so excited!!

Posted by B at 9:18 PM